the sad part is i have a lot of consoles and computers that would be fun to play with but i take little to no joy playing with them by myself and wish i could bring people into my room to play with me

that makes it hard when most of my friends live in different corners of the world and the two or so i can actually meet in person are hard to coordinate with to come here and living with my deadnaming bigot racist dictatorship-supporting grandmother makes having an indoors social life impossible