maple classic™ 
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so there's a furry bowling event happening tomorrow and i thought about going since around december and now that it's happening in ... a few hours, i'm likely not going anymore becuase i won't know anyone there and probably won't enjoy myself and honestly i'm not so sure i want to spend all the money i would to go there and back plus pay for a bowling lane even if i split it with others
i don't know if i want advice or not i just want to vent about this a bit
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the event is happening in the city next over so it's a bit of a trip to get there with public transport and even tho theres meetups to go in groups i'm still not super comfortable going by myself because i won't know anyone there
at the same time the prospect of not going is already filling me with remorse bc this small bowling event is the closest thing to a furcon i'll be able to participate in in the foreseeable future and ig the furry community kinda pressures me into wanting to go to one
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i kinda wanted to meet more furry people physically near me since all furries i know are continents away from me but at the same time i'm getting flashbacks from the last anime con i attended (first and only by myself) and how awful it was and i do not want to repeat the experience and i'm just afraid that's exactly what could happen if i go
that and the effort involved in going is also something i think i don't want to spend tomorrow
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anyway maybe it'll be a missed opportunity but all i can do now is hope i get more opportunities to go on a con i want under more favourable circumstances such as having someone i know with me