🥭 @void@computerfairi.es

sorry my drug experiences are so limited that i literally never shut up about the ones that ive had

im now forever extremely aware that i do not truly exist aside from being a hunk of organ matter experiencing a variety of stimuli and that that is an incredibly vulnerable state of being to be. i would also like to experience being made entirely of cubes again, that was fun

if i could just be chilling in a dark room with no pressing matters or severe injuries that would have actually been cool as hell

like it was confusing and stressful towards the end but also i keep thinking about the middle experience and it was mostly killed by feeling like i had to be awake and alert

obviously it's different in a medical vs recreational sense but i think if afforded the opportunity i would actually definitely do ketamine again

the only real difference is pronouns, he/him for canon, they/them for au

ive talked about haven's gender before but his trajectory in canon is cis man -> "i live with two genderless shapeshifters who cares" flavored nonbinary, and in the au it's basically the same just without the shapeshifting part

for wraith they were declared a 3rd gender at birth due to being intersex, and stuck around there until they forgot what gender was and have been genderless ever since. in the au they've got the messy experience that intersex people tend to face as a kid, and pretty much as soon as they figure out they have the option to be agender they jump to that and never leave

in the au, it goes more like:
"""boy"""
trans woman?
"well, that wasn't it"
and lands on genderqueer

in dtc canon, witch's gender goes from:
"""boy"""
"boy" but make it gay
genderqueer
specifically agender
"holy shit i can shapeshift??"
and finally lands on "intentionally confusing", when they become the witch

its okay i wrote some of dw so im allowed

argh. im thinking too much about human au

i think they'd toss it around but not settle on it. alas

bc they're not keeping their ex wife's name, and they're really not going back to their family name. would they find that funny...

..............................would human au witch be the sort of person to change their last name after their divorce to Chambers so their full name would be Echo Chambers

HEY I THOUGHT INTERNAL STITCHES WERE[ SUPPOSED TO STAY INSIDE YURO BODY AND NOT POKE OUT THROUGHT THEE FLESH WHAT THE BITCHFUCKING CHRSIT

it's not like i can do anything else. im bracing as best i can either way but im way over here

me: *thinking about ocs*
life: delivers probably the second worse news it could give
me: *thinks about ocs but faster to cope*

they are both judgmental and bitchy and would take for fucking ever to get their shit together because maria is terrible at distinguishing her feelings and antimony is good luck im behind seven emotional brick walls and am projecting an entirely fabricated personality but i think. they would get there eventually.

HOW COULD I BE SO BLIND THEY WOULD MAKE A PERFECT COUPLE