🥭 @void@computerfairi.es

on some level this is an overreaction to the final straw of "i'm thirsty but i have to wash dishes which will make my arm hurt" but also i just checked the politcal situation and have been getting exposed to climate change bullshit all day and bennie's in seattle and frankly we're all going to be dead in five years anyway so what's the point of sticking around

i want to lay down and cry on the floor and drink bleach

there is so much shit i have to do and i cannot overstate how much i would rather hang myself instead of doing it

i think my dad didn't quite realize that when i said "getting the bedsheets off was a struggle" what i meant was "i was drenched in sweat and crying at the end" but that's probably for the best

tbh its really tragic that i cant find a way to let w/w/h be parents in a way that makes sense

witch is just good with kids and would feel compelled to Let This Child Have A Nice Day

i think the "your significant other is suddenly a baby and this explains their backstory" is a hard trope to pull off and not make weird, but i think in a separate au where the person would grow up to be fundamentally different person its fine

AAAAAAANYWAY last night's oc thought consisted of witch circa slightly before tvb era somehow coming in contact with age like. 7. vanilla!wraith/kirril and doing a fantastic job babysitting them

jesus christ maybe im having a bad day

why is facebook suicide baiting me

sorry for this being 90% of my feed but im so fucking tired of being injured

the literal one singular good thing about this whole situation is that i get to make a pillow nest smack in the center of the bed >:))))

and then i overdo it and am in pain

i can do just enough with it that i feel like shit for not being back up to 100% functionally

the more functional my arm gets the more useless i feel

my problem is that i don't have a midpoint between "extremely casual and full of filler words" and "had a one night stand with a thesaurus once and still isn't over her five years later"

rip to anyone who thinks my actual formal writing style isn't melodramatic borderline purple prose

the demon hunting cast has other problems, for sure, but escaped me projecting suicidal ideation into them entirely

city/verse has nick, cooper, and a couple others past tense, A and B textually commit suicide to escape their situation (the story is set in the afterlife so they're like, fine), vampireverse has alain being suicidally depressed due to vampirism angst for a long ass time, diectical has haven and past tense witch (and past tense wraith, to a much lesser extent), and dreams has fi and aqua

funnily enough, im pretty sure the miserable goredeath demon hunting universe is the only one where no one in the main cast is our has been even a little suicidal?