@quephird@mastodon.social the work isn't going to be pleasant, or easy, but it is worthwhile. and it's not something other people can do *for* you, it's something you must do yourself.
but step one is realizing it's work within your power to do, and not just "i am a monster whom nobody could ever love". go tell that voice of self-hatred that it is wrong, pick up some DBT self-help, read about trans people who wonderfully transitioned late in life, order a pretty dress tailored to you, and get in there to work.