we need a word - probably loaned from german - for "the exhausted, pale shade of might-as-well-laugh-to-keep-from-crying feeling when you notice callouts naming someone as doing really ugly shit, and you had clocked this person as suspect or even blocked/muted them weeks ago, so you have a moment of going 'whelp, still got it, i guess'... to give yourself pause from the unrelenting misery of it all"