Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

holy shit i gotta use my therapy lamp tomorrow because i do not think i am awake at all and i've been up for 6 hours

but at least in this stupid stupid game i'm still a goddamn cute anime girl.

real footage of me after realizing i've worried the crucifix off my fidget bracelet (again)

i really need to get on amazon and order more st dymphna medals + crosses + jump rings because my poor fidget bracelet is just. mildly in pieces again. did recover st dymphna but idk man, i think that crucifix is well and truly gone. probably in the h-mart parking lot. JC decided He wanted to stick around for the red bean donuts, it's fine, it's fine

seriously, it's not a good game, soulworker. however. i look adorable, thank you for noticing

soulworker is one of the shittiest games i think i've ever played in some respects. like, there's bad things. shit's bad. it's not a good game.

but i have an unreasonable amount of fun with it so here we are i guess

idk if i will be able to pull myself together to actually do a proper bit of rp of me staffing the place for an evening but goddammit if i didn't have a satisfying evening of researching this stuff anyway

can you express your love for #ffxivrp by making menus? idk but i'm gonna try to find out. #ffxiv http://bit.ly/wassailbunc

need to go out somewhere? anxious about being out? i can wear these things i'm excited to wear. and there goes some of that roadblock.

vitamin pills just too big? okay. we'll take some gummi vitamins instead.

hands dry? we'll get some hand cream that is nice to use and make sure to carry it around.

every little thing helps. every little opportunity to take care of yourself better counts, and it all adds up. nothing is too small, and nothing is too big either.

a big part of self care, the part that isn't as glamorous but i think is much more important, is "how do i make this easier. how do i streamline."

but both approaches to me boil down to the same thing: "how do i make it easier to rebut my own excuses for not doing something that is good for me?"

so yeah, it means using the fancy soap, or putting on the glittery eyeliner, or planning a cute outfit, or doing stuff that seems a bit silly

like i just ordered an electric kettle for my bathroom. a fancy one where you can set the temp quite low. why? because it will make that one step easier to do daily neti pot rinses, and i know if i keep up neti pot rinses, i am much less bothered by sinus gunk.

honestly, it may be very commercialized and fluffy, but an aspect of self care i have really really appreciated lately is looking at situations and going:

"how can i make this into something that's fun instead of something i dread doing?"

god it feels good to have a smoof face tho

i'm not going to bust out any of the big words like 'dysphoria' because i just am a cis girl with pcos i don't need to be up yoinking someone else's narrative, but man, having face fuzz is kinda like a low-level debuff ticking away over your head. i feel so so so much better now, especially after treating myself to a nice new razor cartridge.

i remembered why i don't use my fancy at-home laser hair removal thing:

it scares my dog