Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

idk this looks like a p interesting little meme but i can guarantee my opinions will not be as coherent and knowledgeable as others but anyway (cr1itikal voice) let's do this shit

my dog is sulking at me because i'm not in bed

either she can tell i'm sick and i'm sicker than i think i am, or she's being a brat

i don't even understand the miku hatsunes but i feel like some weeb needs to get on being the first person to post the lyrics to double lariat with spinny text

ok that's genuinely fucking obnoxious to do that much spinny text don't worry i'm done

[spin]that sound you hear is definitely maple raising the banhammer and about to smite me[/spin]

[spin]i hope y'all are ready for me to communicate exclusively in spinning text now[/spin]

YESSSS IT WORKS

aw man why it no work

oh well i will figure it out later

[large=2x][spin]FUCK YEAH MOTHERFUCKERS[/spin][/large]

you know what game we REALLY need on the switch?

recettear

me: wrow why do i feel crummy

my body, with a temperature of 101.9: yeah that's a fucken mystery that will never be solved for sure buddy

light therapy lamp pros: does genuinely seem to improve mood, helps keep me on day schedule a bit

light therapy lamp cons: Oh My God My Keyboard Is Filthy

i should maybe learn to contour someday but honestly i have the round face of a chubby victorian cherub so i really don't think any amount of bronzer is going to magically fix that

anyway, that's enough horrible ranting, and i'm sorry for all of those words. max strength decongestant + regular adhd med + nyquil = (hamlet voice) WORDS, WORDS, WORDS https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0eecBodRWME (man i really need to watch that version all the way thru, kenneth branagh makes such a gr8 hamlet)

don't worry folks you're going to be spared further blather soon by me going and decorating my house in conan exiles, because A BARBARIAN CRAVES CURTAINS AND A CUTE BREAKFAST NOOK

admitting you have fucked up is one of the most awful feelings in the entire world. it is not fun. it is not pleasant. it's stressful and harrowing. that is why it is so tempting to just never do it.

but it's also uniquely wonderful because there is always a second chance, or third, or fifteenth, or seven hundredth. you can fuck up and still do better. *always*. always!

and this is, i think, one of the most thrilling and beautiful things to ever do.

so don't deny yourself that, folks.

that sort of over the top public self-loathing, while declaring any attempts to change useless, is just one more beat in a cycle that this wigglytuff has been in far too many times.

i still love a comeback. i have to, given how i fuck up. but a redemption has got to start with accepting responsibility for your own actions and seeking to do better, yeah?

we all fuck up. but we can all do better. that's the thrilling bit. fucking up is terrifying. *but we can all do better.* ALL of us.

at the end of the day, i'm still a sucker for a redemption tale. it's my favourite kind of story in fictional media.

but so often online when i see that martyrdom play, it's not a redemption tale's start, but instead someone wanting to completely divorce themselves from all responsibility for themselves.

if you think every problem with yourself is immutable, of course it will never be fixed. in the end it's mostly people asking for permission for the next time.

anyway i think the moral of the tale is that the older i get, the more this wigglytuff just sees someone sobbing about how awful and unfixable and evil and bad forever they are, the more i am just likely to... not want to do that emotional labor

at some point that sort of public dramatics ends up a ploy, and no amount of soothing fluff is going to actually address the fundamental problem - of wanting to wholesale outsource emotional labor onto other people.

i am super super excited that the bb cream i got seems like it hasn't made my face hate me, AND ACTUALLY MATCHES MY SKIN TONE which is near-impossible because my skin thinks the color yellow is fake news

a few pimples this morning but honestly given that they're only on like the tip of my nose... i do keep blowing gunk out of my nose constantly into kleenex and that'd probably be enough irritation for my super sensitive skin lol