i'm not exactly running these things over with a steamroller or tossing them into a meatgrinder either!!! i'm laying them on my shoulder...!!!
i just want to chill my shoulder without dealing with grey smears on my chair and clothes and person 😭
uuugh i need to summon my Can I Speak To Your Manager energy because these reusable coldpacks are fucking beyond the pale
same company, same product, held up for 7 years. great, let's get some more. 2 out of the 6 or so new ones have had to be tossed out entirely. the other 3 are all patched. the heat sealing around the edge is just... not as good as it used to be, so the grey goop is constantly leaking out. i thought putting duct tape all around the edge would head off problems, but no... =_=
i can't believe last week lolita news is the salt queen #lolitafashion both needs, and deserves https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZO0EhkOjFs
srsly i may have bawled a little at the final point here. it's so good.
this joke is ABSOLUTELY FUCKING AWFUL and i make no apologies nor excuses for it.
also the lewd qualities of the phrase "creme de mint" will be left as an exercise to the reader
notes to myself at this point... perhaps include
-'slow tv', youtube channels with how it's made/etc. - put candy making videos here, also some aquarium livestreams
-guided videos about grounding techniques/meditation?
-look at some apps maybe to also rec? like https://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/instant_access_dbt.html , https://www.thinkpacifica.com/cognitive-behavioral-therapy-app/ , https://anxietycanada.com/resources/mindshift-cbt/ and so on? (do wonder if those outside canada can use the last one tho)
i should really update https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qToh9xO7qDHzFymPiQEdFPeOjnnn_RCGm6Qf31eXJ94/edit?usp=sharing soon
this is mainly a relaxation list which i started on tumblr as my like... "hey here's tricks to pull out when you feel a panic attack inc to get out of that spiral", but if folks have some stuff that would go well with this, please let me know! i'd be glad to expand with more links to #mentalhealth resources and such
i remembered the pharmacopoeia talk i gave in #ffxiv so
here it is if you want to roleplay your characters having a bad time because humoral medicine is not accurate! hooray! https://docs.google.com/document/d/1YF3noFbO-ZX4D5U1unju5pS_jr9OmrUuu0AVGFpova4/edit?usp=sharing
also this is just sort of like. HI NEW GUILDMATES. I AM HARP. THIS IS MY BULLSHIT. I AM BACK ON IT ☺️ ☺️ ☺️
so what is the rest of mch like? the 'cold' phase is just... really annoying to me.
it's all proc-based, and you really need those procs because otherwise the rotation is not worth carrying through. so, get used to going 1, 1, 1, 1, 1...
you get some guaranteed procs from ammo but those you need for your hot phase.
it's just... fiddly and no-fun
and i like smn gdi!!!!!
the hot phase for mch is frustrating because:
-the reliance on wildfire means that if you flub up your hot phase, you're fucked.
-the hot phase means you have to do a LOT to maximize it
-getting to the hot phase can take a variable amount of time (since attacks rely on rng)
-and what's worse is that you need to manage TWO hot phases, and coordinate them to happen at the same time, when overheat is much more finicky to manage and also has a punishment for a few secs after it ends
30 y/o - token cishet - tumblr refugee. spoonie/15 chronic conditions in a trenchcoat/actual cyborg. just hangin' in there