Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

time to soothe my own raging jackassery by watching trashy reality tv and being a very angry stab rabbit

(see following illustration for what very angry stab rabbit is)

anyway, no good deed goes unpunished i guess, should have expected some asshole wanting to be snarky-smug in response to a Hey My Dudes, Please Don't Die Of Heat psa

i am not in the motherfucking mood today, y'all. if you've got some blatant jackassery to spew in my direction, kindly go forge yourself a dildo of razor blades and sit n' spin instead.

fucking christ. what's next, does somebody want to come whine and moan at me and have a little pissy strop because a graphic i found and reposted but did not make myself doesn't follow the full API 2019 style guide? am i going to have someone do a little tantrum at me because i post a meme that splits an infinitive? did i not sufficiently humble myself and fluff their I Know Math And Am Therefore Superior Hurr Hurr Geometry boner so i can assure them how smart they are?

I AM CLEAN BUT AT WHAT COST ow ow ow ow ow ow fuck.

big #spoonie mood here y'all

i recognize my enormous privilege in even being able to access a lawyer who can help me with this no-really-still-disabled-folks bullshit but also

FURIOUS, STRAINED GARGLING AT THE FIRST APPOINTMENT AVAILABLE WITH HIM IS THE DAY BEFORE MY SURGERY

so in conclusion i should trust my gut and just fucking block people the first time that they make me grumble, thanks for attending my ted talk

but who am i kidding, a person who also goes "boy i hate # tag so much i'm glad i blacklisted it" and makes sure that post shows up in the tag has zero awareness about their actions, the space they take up, and how that affects others

they look at this place as only having one real person in it - them. nobody else is real, nobody else is worth considering. it's all a fun thing to break because they enjoy breaking things.

that precious little "but i'm a hackerrrrrr~~~~~~" attitude is bullshit when faced with the consequence of "you have tried to break something i did as a public service, in a way that you know would impact me negatively. and because of you, nobody gets to use this needed service now, because i can't keep up with your bullshit".

and without even a fucking apology. just OOPSIE POOPSIE! CLEAN UP AFTER BAYBEEEEE

and don't pretend to be an enlightened leftist if you are also fucking careening through the world going I WANNA BREAK THING! WANNA BREAK! WANNA SMASH YOUR SANDCASTLE! DON'T CARE YOU MADE IT! WANNA BREAK THING!! NO BE ANGWY WITH BAYBEE, I SMASH HEE HEE! YOU GET CLEAN UP! I ONLY SMASH! MOMMY FIX ALL BABY'S MESS! with zero fucking thought about the affect you're having on other people

it's the same bullshit frat bro attitude of "i don't need to do dishes! i don't need to put my clothes in the hamper! i don't need to actually look at how what i'm doing affects others, because i'm mommy's precious widdle babbu and mommy will clean up after me forever and ever!"

it's not everyone else's job to be your mommy and clean up after you. it's your job to be a responsible human being

"but that person isn't male, you shouldn't call them a fossbro!"

well i'm saying that they need to take a fucking flea bomb to their attitude because they know they clearly ain't a fossbro and so need to stop with adopting these values and not questioning passing them on, especially when that fossbro fucking boorishness is directly against someone

fuckssake hacker fossbro mentality of "it's not my job to do anything other than break shit because i find breaking shit fun and everyone should let me because it's a funny joke"

this is also the sign of a fucking awful housemate if somebody thinks "but i wanted to have fun making a mess" is all the justification they need to do so with no intention of cleaning any of it up or even an apology for the presumed cleaner

so basically, in summary, i am this mood as presented by mads mikkelsen.

at least i fucking splurged this month i guess

just... for fuck's sake. for FUCK'S sake.

that's absolutely what i fucking needed! thanks! another stressor! another thing to keep me up at night! another worry!!

FUCK YOU.

i'm about 90% sure somebody was sitting at their desk and went "oh she's so young. she can't still be disabled and i have a quota to meet. take those benefits away."

i realize

i have enormous privilege in having a family that is ready to support me and not having to rely on these things completely

however

less than 2 weeks to surgery and "btw we have deemed you fit to work so your benefits are going poof :) eat shit"

are you fucking kidding me

are you FUCKING KIDDING ME.

there's some powerful personalities out there today in coerthas y'all #ffxiv