OK, here goes...
Something deeply personal I think I've never posted anywhere before. Please read it kindly.

As long as I can remember, I simultaneously wished I was female and found what is called "female" the most attractive.
No idea if the first part may come from my mother being angry with me until death bed for being born male,
but I know when kids started the whole "haha, you like girls!" and "girls rule!", I just went "yes..?" and "yes!".
I just don't feel strongly enough to actually strive for anything like gender-correction.
I once found there was a word for that, but I forgot.

Doesn't mean I'm hetero- nor homosexual, but I suppose labeled as bisexual in that area,
but hrmm, mainly towards females that don't give a shit about what they're seen as, just... are.

I'm sure I've phrased something in a way that may offend someone, but... I tried and, that's me.

Yes, strictly speaking I suppose that post was my first "coming out" or whatever,
although I feel I don't really have the right to use that phrase about myself since I have not and don't expect any major problems in because of it,
compared to... well, you know.

@b9AcE Never put yourself down like that. Just because you've never directly experienced it isn't a burden to you. The very fact that your identity was erased and trivialized by your own family members, making you hesistant to proudly display your identity in public spaces is more than enough reason to call it "coming out"

@danishcookies Thank you very much for your response!
Eben when not experiencing the worst personally, it's a stigmatized thing...
Thank you!