crushes and the dangers of imagination
Earlier today I imagined a scenario that I can't stop thinking about, but I know I have to stop because it's going to break my heart
re: crushes and the dangers of imagination
The imaginary scenario:
- all of my in-person crushes and I are in the same room (actually legitimately a likely scenario!)
- one of them asks if I have a crush on anyone (unlikely)
- I confess to all of them at once and it goes well (improbable)
I know it isn't a good thing to imagine it going like this because it sets up these weird subconscious expectations of unlikely things...
But the intensity of the idea of that single moment keeps drawing me in
re: crushes and the dangers of imagination
I think ultimately the biggest issue is that I can't imagine what happens beyond that moment.
Like, if they all like me back? How would we proceed?
What if only some of them like me back? What if someone really doesn't like me
What if admitting it in a group makes them feel less special and cherished than they would have if I confessed privately? It's this last one that I think is the scariest - that the act of confession might hurt someone I care about
re: crushes and the dangers of imagination
But still!!!
The romance of all your crushes being in the same room as you.... *Wistful sigh*