lewd, reflections on sexuality, homophobia, transphobia, religion, nbphobia(?)
it's weird that a few years ago I really didn't want to have sex ever because of dysphoria + 10 years of telling myself "I'm a good christian, and won't have extramarital sex"
combine this with realising I had same sex attraction to the same degree as "opposite" sex attraction, which I decided meant that I had to be asexual (a good christian wouldn't be gay...)
anyway the result is that I thought I was ace (cont.)
lewd, reflections on sexuality, homophobia, transphobia, religion, nbphobia(?)
(continued) until I finally realised that I wasn't ace a year or two ago, and now I'm sitting here thinking "man... I really wish I could have sex..."
but the only people I know right now are cisgender gay dudes (who either aren't interested in me or are chasers and can fuck off) and a few trans people, most of which I don't know well enough.
There's only one person who I could ask... and I don't know if I should...
lewd, reflections on sexuality, homophobia, transphobia, religion, nbphobia(?)
maybe I should ask them...
@lizardsquid wanna talk about it? =3