hey, you're a nonbinary girl and the sooner you accept that the happier you'll be
stop forcing yourself further into the church to escape your feelings, you'll get trapped there in a horrible inescapable job for several years and it will suck
and don't go to that christian camp anymore. you know you hate it, and you know how much it made you cry last year.
also when you go to uni? don't do computer science. you're no good at it. do humanities instead