people i used to respect are either using AI for their projects or praising projects that do and this is the loneliest i've felt in the retrocomputing hobby
reflecting on this, this goes beyond just retrocomputing as a hobby. some of these people i've known for over a decade and have had to cut ties with because of AI deepthroating unveiling red flags i should've seen years ago. a huge chunk of my social life (whatever left is of it after years of sexual harassment and DARVO targeted at me) is just gone. i am so tired
computers are deeply, intimately personal to me, and i feel fucking desolate right now
meeting "computer people" as someone whose only friend for their youngest formative years was the computer, was the mistake. if the computer is the only friend you have you cannot trust other people who said the computer is the only friend they had too. they're the enemy
that is the only way i can reason every single way in which i've been betrayed and abused
my zine grows more and more true by the day. i will only ever be friends with computers
@mavica_again computers only started attracting the worst kinds of people when they saw there was money in it. the first programmers were women, largely because it was seen as boring and unglamorous. womon's work. it was only once computers started to become the knifes edge of a profitable tech revolution that men started swarming the industry and pushing all the women out
this is why we can't have nice things
@mavica_again it's not like men are the problem here, it's that Men are the problem. a lot of the individual dudes who wanted to participate in this exciting new field were no doubt lovely guys, but even the nicest ones of them participated in patriarchy, if unknowingly. bosses would be more inclined to hire and promote men, because of their biases. and of those people, the ones most willing to lie and cheat and suck up and sell out their values are the ones most likely to get elevated
@Yza sincerely these replies are unwanted
computers were a mistake not because of the computer. computers were a mistake because they attracted the worst in the worst people and hurt the normal people like me in the sidelines