and i feel so phony im constantly looking thru my tumblr trying to contextualize it within the "repressed tranz" narrative bc i feel like anyone who knew me beforehand would react like "oh now "she" thinks "shes" trans? im sure shes telling the truth 😒" i feel so disconnected from what i perceive as Real, Legitimate trans women, i dont believe in transtrenders except when it helps to make me feel shitty