ADHD and Video Games (Ft. Jim Sterling) - Access-Ability
https://youtu.be/qwRKLNb6wYA

@noiob ...fuck i... god...

goddammit I keep forgetting just how goddamn bad ADHD affects me and this video makes me feel so goddamn fucking seen and validated... and also it hurts so fucking much to realise that 90% of my life has been an uphill struggle just because I was only ever fucking told "oh you just suck at focusing", and it took me until just like the last five years before I started realising JUST how bad ADHD is.

@Nine YUP, SAME

@noiob and fidning out Jim has the EXACT SAME FUCKING PROBLEM WITH READING AS I DO is ...

i legit started crying. god i genuinely cannot fucking read books now. i used to love fucking doing it, I used to read SO GODDAMN MUCH and now I can't so muich as pick one up and read more than a few words in a paragraph before I endup finding myself re-reading the damn passage AGAIN. god. fuck.

@Nine yeah same, I used to hyperfocus through books within hours as a child, though I still can read them if I force myself to actually get into them

@noiob @Nine huh... here I was thinking ability to focus enough to read books dropping off over time was just an us thing...

@IceWolf @noiob @Nine
I also used to c o n s u m e books and often hyperfocused on them to the point of being unable to sleep until finishing a story. That love died in high school and I honestly don't know why. I can't force myself to read books anymore because I know I'll lose interest part-way through and give up ever returning to it. Audiobooks while I'm travelling are my only working solution right now.. so I haven't read anything in a year.

@mawr @noiob @Nine blrrf. 🧡

for me, I've found I can somewhat read if I can just force myself to read long enough that I get into Reading Mode. At least. Back when I tried it uhhh probably over a year ago. >,,>

@IceWolf @mawr @noiob just getting to that starting point though is super, super, SUPER hard in the first place though huh? Like, I have books I absolutely adore... I have read Watership Down like, eight times my entire life. Four of those times were before I was even 13. Miq bought me a copy of it, as a physical book, with a beautiful custom made cover for one of my birthdays a few years back. It's one of my most treasured possessions. I've read it precisely once. since :<