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@IceWolf @mawr @noiob just getting to that starting point though is super, super, SUPER hard in the first place though huh? Like, I have books I absolutely adore... I have read Watership Down like, eight times my entire life. Four of those times were before I was even 13. Miq bought me a copy of it, as a physical book, with a beautiful custom made cover for one of my birthdays a few years back. It's one of my most treasured possessions. I've read it precisely once. since :<

@mammothrept@mastodon.online paper tastey .__.;

and Only now do I realise that they've been doing this deliberately and preying on that particular bit of my brain and my ADHD, holy fuck.

fuck i literally stopped sleeping some nights because of my ability to just chew through books (also a little literally, I uh... I used to without even thinking about it, tear bits off the edges of pages and eat them for some reason ._.; a lot of my books from when I was younger are uh... monch'd somewhat...).

also the bit where Jim talks about predatory microtransactions HOLY FUCK I am furious at game devs now for those. I have LEGIT been tricked by them with those, repeatedly in the past.

@noiob and fidning out Jim has the EXACT SAME FUCKING PROBLEM WITH READING AS I DO is ...

i legit started crying. god i genuinely cannot fucking read books now. i used to love fucking doing it, I used to read SO GODDAMN MUCH and now I can't so muich as pick one up and read more than a few words in a paragraph before I endup finding myself re-reading the damn passage AGAIN. god. fuck.

@noiob ...fuck i... god...

goddammit I keep forgetting just how goddamn bad ADHD affects me and this video makes me feel so goddamn fucking seen and validated... and also it hurts so fucking much to realise that 90% of my life has been an uphill struggle just because I was only ever fucking told "oh you just suck at focusing", and it took me until just like the last five years before I started realising JUST how bad ADHD is.

btw if you haven't yet, (and you're not terrified of clowns, cause uh, there's a lot of 'em in there) you should absolutely watch Worthikid's "Wire" video because a) it's rad as hell, b) big monster clown gal who super stronk and very teethy , c) awesome fuckin' music too, d) the animation is slick as fuck and e) yeah it's nothing to do with Big Top Burger sadly but I cannot stop headcanoning it myself.

god im so glad i got Miq to play Undertale and Deltarune because now I have someone to gush about it in person to and htey can gush back ;w;

@legendaryjoeb EYYYYYYYYYY 8D

@ohtorifightclub ooh, could also be under Windows Mobility Options if you're using windows.

@ohtorifightclub This sounds weirdly familiar to something that happened to me on my old keyboard...

It might be your keyboard has a "Function Lock" (Fn Lock) key, or you need to hold the Fn key and press... whichever button the Fn Lock is on? to turn them back into the Function keys instead of their media keyboard/brightness/sound functions.

... Might be Fn+Esc? Possibly??

@monorail Your dad is ... actuially correct. I wanted to see if I could find some scans of BASIC programs from the old Spectrum magazines my dad used to get me but no such luck it seems.

But yeah. Honestly though hardly any of them actually were much cop. But then I never seemed to grasp the whole "you can change this program to see what it does and then learn programming that way" for some reason. ._.; even back then my brain didn't work so well I guess.

@legendaryjoeb *waits for the pun to be recognised :3 *

@legendaryjoeb that view tho?

rocks

@sunsetmoth ... Oohhhhhh... That explains a few things