Ren - Moved to chitter.xyz @Nine@computerfairi.es

CHRIST.

...

I guess I Should just try and dig out my old minidisc player wherever the heck it's gotten to. I mean I'm not likely to use it ever but .. y'know. kinda just wanna...

...play with the discs.

which I don't have any more. hm

i mean god i love teh aesthetic and feel and sound of minidiscs and loading them into the player but FUCK ME RUNNING

just on a whim I decided to have a look at how much portable minidisc players are on the internet and HOW THE BALLS HAVE THEY HAVE ANY BUSINESS BEING £200+ WHAT THE SHIT

so @kyra has a commissions page and it'd be super neat if you could maybe lend her a hand by commissioning her for some arts? https://commiss.io/kyra have a lookiesee~

I say my mood is okay because i mean this wholly sucks, entirely. like, full on sucks, but ... I dunno, I'm not falling apart at the moment. just kinda like "welp. fuck, oh well." Mostly writing this here so I don't forget it tomorrow. It'll help me remember it when I talk to a doctor

okay so... yeah so I don't forget this for tomorrow since I will absolutely be calling in sick probably for this entire week and possibly longer, depending on how this goes,

something is very, very wrong, when I am sat down watching a movie, on a couch, nice and cosy and warm, petting cats, and my heart starts pounding in my chest and I start feeling anxious, and I'm still low grade panicky right now. It's survivable, but my hands are trembly.

oops haven't used my surface in a while so it probably needs some updates and also it's being a bit wonky

i finally managed to find something to eat, some flatbread things and philadelphia cheese. that'll have to do until later Ithink

mnh. nneed food. can't get food. ahglfgh. don't feel too good

hghnfafsfflghggfgfg hungry

need food
nothing to eat

in house

aghyglnb

like iw as spending all this time just doing the "cook with mama" thing

without realising that there's an entirely separate game mode where she doesn't hold your hand, and just cheers you on while you make food for other people

or a mode where you combine two types of ingredient for a random challenge which you then unlock as a new food you can make in the other modes

it's just

so relaxing and so good and so fun.