bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es
(aka tonya)
39/pan/trans. she/they.
writes about dumb junk about video games and music sometimes.
your woof friend. may also be bnuuy or kitty depending on mood.
Joined Oct 2017
personality, gender
My aunt from Vegas is visiting for the next two weeks.
Last night, while everyone else had a considerable amount of drinks, a sober me was talking with my aunt about life, family and how I felt restrained from how I wanted to express myself.
I was hinting towards gender stuff but didn't explicitly say, and even a few months later I hesitate ever talking about it to family.
bev!
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What if we put a chaingun on top of Doom Marine's body!
It'd look something... like this!
gender and age stuff
@RustyRetro@snouts.online I'm in my mid-30s and I'm still wrestling with this myself.
Someone once told me that you're never too old and that it's never too late, and I believe her
bev!
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man goes to his therapist. says he's been pretty sad lately. says he's been having trouble finding the joy in things.
therapist asks him if there have been any times he *has* been happy recently. man thinks for a second, then nods. says he's felt comparatively joyful on his commutes home every night, riding the bus downtown from capitol hill.
therapist closes his notebook and nods. "that makes sense," he says. "bus 10 makes me feel good, too."
other people's styles, outfit ideas
I realize I tend to follow some people who have good goth/punk looks and I've always imagined if I could pull it off
probably not
I genuinely would love to give these posters a proper home, but I don't know if there's any demand for that stuff.
For a while I've had some posters rolled up in my room that I had no idea what they were.
Today, I found out I have a Kirby 20th Anniversary poster, a Fallout New Vegas poster, and oddly, a poster for some GFW Radio reunion?
I seemed to get a lot of junk from PAX.
It's 6AM and christ my back is sore.
I need some cuddles and comfort right now 
@mavica people need you around. please don't think like that.
@RustyRetro@snouts.online *hugs*
bev!
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The creators of SimCity had a division that made Sim games for corporations, including a game for Chevron called SimRefinery.
For the first time ever: this is the story of Maxis Business Simulations
This is the culmination of four years of research, and I'm so proud to share it 💚
mood, socializing, loneliness (~)
I don't know why it's so hard for me to just talk to someone about stuff or something, just so I don't feel lonely.
hell, talking to them just for affection and comfort would be nice. :<
it's weird, I was so tired tonight that I figured I'd get several hours of unbroken sleep.
turns out I only got 2-3 before being awake again. dang.
Went through the effort of updating some more old blog posts.
Then I realized it's been four years since I wrote about some dumb video game-related food item.
I need to change that.
bev!
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body, energy (~)
went out to get some stuff done and already I'm outright exhausted.
hate feeling so out of shape 
selfie, ec, food
@mavica these give a sense of style that's kinda missing from photography these days. new, yet old.
that third image of you would make a good profile picture on a website or album cover or something.
@RustyRetro@snouts.online such a cute tail
self-reflection
I've published about 160 things on my blog over the course of 8 years.
I honestly am amazed I've kept at it for so long.
war mention
it's weird that I wrote an article in 2013 about some dude making a pirate game in the Build engine, then a hard pivot into politics as that same guy later made the infamous "Quest for Saddam" game.
My second year of blogging and I decided to write about *that*. 
(aka tonya)
39/pan/trans. she/they.
writes about dumb junk about video games and music sometimes.
your woof friend. may also be bnuuy or kitty depending on mood.
Joined Oct 2017
