bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

morning, folks.

still not feeling 100% confident on the name thing. but I can't think of any other names right now so I'll stick with it.

not gonna lie I posted this for some vague sense of validation and confidence

getting some response was worth it, I think

I'm... beverly? maybe?

Today has been lightly productive. I went out to drop off a form, I wrote a draft of a future blog post...

It feels weird to like, say "I'm gonna do something" and not just procrastinate for a few days until I guilt trip myself into doing it.

Where has this motivation come from??

Listening to SomaFM's "Underground 80s" station play Rock Lobster, a 1978 song, tells me two things.

1. Songs from prior to 1980 can be featured on the station, making it not really "Underground 80s"
2. "the 80s" is an arbitrary decade that we just follow so everything's consistent

mm, morning.

I feel so weird that I don't have a webcam when I visit two group chats that use video chat

But I honestly don't want to look at myself normally, having a webcam would make that worse

Fallen down a rabbit hole of watching 1980s Hollywood Squares episodes

This show was so goofy yet I love it for some dumb reason

okay, usually I'm alright with text chat and don't really feel up with voice chat unless others start up something like a game or a stream

but lately I've been feeling like I want to voice chat with people as a spur-of-the-moment sort of thing? it's weird.

So I finished Turning Point: Fall of Liberty.

It's so janky. It definitely feels unfinished. It tries to feel like Medal of Honor: Airborne and fails. And its plot was done better by Wolfenstein: The New Order a few years later.

I definitely have found a new thing to write about, because this thing is the kind of amazing trainwreck I haven't experienced in a good long while.

One thing I'll hope to get over someday is worrying that anything I say to someone will make them immediately hate me.

So many times I've sent replies and comments to people, only to feel "oh wait they may not like that and they'll start hating me, better delete that"

It sucks.

morning.

Updated an old blog post and am considering ways to take a video and make it a webm so I don't have to rely on YouTube for it, but I honestly don't know how to make them

Or if Wordpress even supports them

Playing through Turning Point: Fall of Liberty for a future blog post and... I can definitively say it is A Video Game.

I'm fascinated by this sort of mediocre junk, the kind of stuff tossed by the wayside, mostly forgotten.

This'll be an interesting one, I think.

The next time some CS:GO rando sends me a Steam friend request, I'm just gonna post the lyrics to The Who's Who Are You in their comment section

I always seem to get Steam friend requests from randos, ones who usually have valuable CS:GO inventories.

Why are they bugging me, I don't even have anything valuable, just a handful of $5+ skins

Leave me be, damn it

morning.

Listening to Guns N' Roses' Use Your Illusion I and I'm *starting* to think Guns N' Roses is a bit overrated?

Can't deny they made good hits but this album ain't clicking with me