bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

Listening to a random Spotify playlist I made a few years ago called "chill jams."

Not sure if Paul Hardcastle's King Tut counts but it's certainly a jam

protip: careful where you walk while drunk, otherwise you might stub your toe and still feel the pain the next day.

Haven't felt a pain last this long in a long time, honestly. worried I might've broken it.

I'm drunk, bring snuggles

There's a small bit of me that's concerned that that's just the alcohol talking, but I figure that if they don't mind, that this is a genuine thought.

I'm just nervous and excited now. I might get to be who I want to be without fear of worrying about what others think.

These are gonna be some interesting times.

While in another drunken haze tonight, I confessed my gender problems with the one person whom was my roadblock for a long while: My dad's girlfriend.

She seemed okay with it.

I can't believe it took me like several months and a few drinks to open up and confess something.

I've been given a rather tall glass of frozen strawberry margarita.

It's alright. Trying to get used to the "sipping around the glass so the salt and the margarita mix together" part.

Wish I could talk to more people one on one

Probably missing out on cool people doing cool things by just participating in group chats.

Would be great if people stopped reminding me that we have a less-than-desirable candidate running against a fascist in this year's election.

It's why I've been telling people to focus on state and city elections, because that's where change is made.

For example, I don't want a lose a senator to some Qanon dipshit that's running against him.

I'm a bit drunk this evening

Had a conversation with a family member about how I'm feeling gender-wise, and knowing she approves even while we're both rather inebriated gives me hope.

Stuff might be happening, and now I'm a bit scared of what'll happen next.

So it's pride month. I'm still kinda in the closet when it comes to trying nb femme stuff.

The only reason why is because I am incredibly afraid to ask my dad's girlfriend if it's okay for me to dress like that around the house.

Wish I could get over that fear.

Wish people were nearby so I could snuggle them

Tonight was a night where I felt happy and comfortable.

I wish it didn't require me to be drunk to enjoy it.

Stumbled upon a YouTube playlist of good Doom music and I'm finding some absolute bangers in this

I've been playing Black Mesa and it's super hard not to play without making Half-Life VR but the AI is Self-Aware jokes

Watching a Giant Bomb video of Trackmania and I'm now just finding out about the majestic Star Wars Metallica track.

It's so ridiculous

New on the Secret Area: Let's revisit 2012.
I look back at some of the stuff I wrote for the Secret Area's first year.

https://asecretarea.com/2020/05/25/revisiting-old-secrets-year-one-2012/