bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

Playing a near-10-year-old Call of Duty is how my day has been, mostly.

Surprisingly people are still playing it!

I just wanna make that clear that I'm okay because of my increased pessimism from last night.

I should probably see a therapist about this.

I'm okay.

I wrote a thing on the birdsite regarding the tax bill that got passed here in the US.

I'm seriously having thoughts of not living because of this.

I'm just done. I can't fight, I can't live with this anymore.

Not gonna lie, my dream is to be a friendly helper that gives hugs and words of encouragement.

Let's hope one day that'll be a thing.

I'm having a conundrum.

What's the right way to wear a zip-up hoodie? Zipped all the way? partially? Not at all for maximum flow?

This is apparently a thing now.

This honestly makes me wonder what even *is* video games at this point.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B077J92PYC

I honestly don't know how to fix my stupid brain to do the "social interaction" thing right.

I think one of the toughest things for me is engaging in a conversation.

I tend to look at internet personalities such as streamers from a long distance.

In my brain for some reason I don't think to talk/message these people ever. Just watch, don't interact.

I seriously need to find some ambient music or something to relax to.

Lately I've been using twitch streams or youtube streams as background noise so I can sleep, but I should be engaging with said streams.

You know what's good? 2:30AM hot cocoa.

Found out that while I fixed dad's computer monitor problem by disabling the problematic update, Windows 10 was like "lolnope" and installed it anyway.

Thank god I rolled back the driver to fix it, but I'm worried this is going to be a repeat occurrence until I find a way to tell it to stop installing the GPU drivers over Windows Update.

Today in "my dad doesn't understand computers or the internet properly":

A Windows Update caused Windows 10 to default to the Microsoft Display Driver rather than the drivers used by the internal GPU, making everything look like stretched 4:3 ass.

He blamed it on people "hacking into his IP address to deliberately change it to force him to buy a new computer."

Granted his PC is old as dirt (got it in the early 2010s), but he only uses it to browse the web, so *shrug*

My god these peanut butter cups from costco are so good

I never thought costco would make better peanut butter cups than reese's.

My brain thought it was a good idea to have the theme from Boy Meets World in my head on loop.

This is the worst feeling.

I keep playing watch_dogs despite not caring a lot for the story and thinking Aiden Pearce is a dull white-ass male protag.

Guess I was itching to play a free-roamer that I hadn't played yet because I'm having more fun doing the side mission junk.

not sure if "united states of whatever" is a good song to have in my head at this time.

It's amusing how my family goes out and gets coffee for everyone, gets me a mocha which I sip like 3-4 times then go to sleep.

Guess I really needed the sleep.

Eventually other family members showed up that actually know how to do this so I'm pretty much hands-off unless they need to know where things are.

Win-win, I guess. :P