bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

honestly thinking of ditching my antidepressants if they're just gonna make me sleep a lot and be apathetic to everything.

I gotta talk with my doctor after the holidays to change antidepressants.

Man I've been out of the loop when it comes to Speedgaming's Zelda Randomizer tournament.

Seems like it's been going on forever. Is there even a tournament or is it just random matches for funsies? :P

Man when I go to the birdsite I don't wanna see friends retweeting internet dumbos like pewdiepie or totalbiscuit.

I'd like to pretend they don't exist, thx

Man remember when Guitar Hero 5 had Public Enemy's Bring the Noise except it was a shitty rock remix by Zakk Wylde that sounded depressing as hell?

For some reason that's in my head right now and I hate it.

oops I fell into a hole of listening to random game show themes again.

If I had even a bit of knowing how to compose music I'd just make that.

Slap bass, horn sections, funky rhythms you could jam to... hell yeah.

brain I seriously do *not* need Wonderful Christmastime stuck in my head at this hour, god damn it

current mood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yi-ZIOmB6EM

A friend of ours brought us a black forest cake. Neat.

There's a weird sense of nostalgia playing World at War again.

It was one of the earliest Xbox 360 games I got. Played the multiplayer a bunch. Enjoyed it despite the subject matter.

But I don't know if I'd say I *love* it or anything. Good, solid game for sure, but I don't know if I'd recommend anyone play it now.

Playing a near-10-year-old Call of Duty is how my day has been, mostly.

Surprisingly people are still playing it!

I just wanna make that clear that I'm okay because of my increased pessimism from last night.

I should probably see a therapist about this.

I'm okay.

I wrote a thing on the birdsite regarding the tax bill that got passed here in the US.

I'm seriously having thoughts of not living because of this.

I'm just done. I can't fight, I can't live with this anymore.

Not gonna lie, my dream is to be a friendly helper that gives hugs and words of encouragement.

Let's hope one day that'll be a thing.

I'm having a conundrum.

What's the right way to wear a zip-up hoodie? Zipped all the way? partially? Not at all for maximum flow?

This is apparently a thing now.

This honestly makes me wonder what even *is* video games at this point.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B077J92PYC

I honestly don't know how to fix my stupid brain to do the "social interaction" thing right.

I think one of the toughest things for me is engaging in a conversation.

I tend to look at internet personalities such as streamers from a long distance.

In my brain for some reason I don't think to talk/message these people ever. Just watch, don't interact.