Aura V. @auravulpes@computerfairi.es

Alright, back to artwork. Here's one of the earliest images of Aura, back before I started going by Aura and when she was still an enderfox. Yes, an enderfox. An enderman, but it's a fox. That's me.

(Yes, I'm aware I fucked up the trans flag. )

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Okay, now this one I *might* regret if it weren't so fucking funny at the time. Say hello to DITTO THANOS.

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Meme time!

Yeah, don't question it. Just go with it.

Honestly, I don't regret this.

By the way, what exactly is the flag on the latter half of pride? At the time, it came up as the bigender pride flag, but apparently it's an intersex pride flag? Anyone know what the deal is with it?

Anyways! Here's another thing I never really shared. I wanted to get this made into a t-shirt way back when I first started at UTA. I still kinda do, though I'd definitely change it to just a single flag (probably the trans flag). Would UTA have been happy about me making this shirt? Probably not, for trademark reasons (they're pretty good on LGBT stuffs). But, hey. It's a good shirt.

It was just...That writing was something I included in a message to my therapist about my self-harm. It managed to so perfectly cover some of what I felt when I did it that I just couldn't *not* include it. It was, like, me speaking through Wynter speaking through me, in a way. And, yet, it was Wynter's own thoughts (as much as they could be, anyways). It just...I dunno. My relationship to my characters is weird.

Honestly, the moment she kinda became her own character and the moment that most reflects my own inner thoughts without being my thoughts was a writing wherein she explains why she liked to fight. In it, she explains that it helped her deal with depression, taking her out of her own mind, and dissociation, keeping her in her own body. And, it just...it was weird. It's words I technically wrote, but it felt like someone else was speaking my thoughts.

Like, seriously, compared to early writings of her, it's ridiculous how she's changed. I mean, the earliest writing I have with her is her musing on how great her girlfriend (who was, at the time, very much a self-insert) is. Since, she's kinda just grown out into a fully-fledged character that, like, is relatable for me, but isn't me.

Incidentally, Wynter's become the character of mine I most deeply relate to, which is interesting, as both her girlfriend, (the as-of-yet unintroduced) Ryver, and Fenris both started as fursonas for me and kept a lot of me in becoming just characters. Honestly, like, the fact that the one OC that wasn't a fursona has become a slight (*slight*) self-insert is just...weird, I guess?

In more images I've had lying around practically finished that I never actually properly finished, a picture of Wynter, my MMA fighter/physics student wolf. This was supposed to just a casual image of her on the weekends or whatever, though she's still got some fresh wounds from her last fight.

Also, I kinda want that shirt. I need to go properly make that shirt so I can have one. I quite like it.

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Seriously, I started drawing this in senior year of high school. It was literally just sitting around because I wanted to try drawing shadows on it and couldn't.

So, I've had this image lying around, unfinished, for ages (seriously, for, like, 3 years now) and I figure it's finally time to just call it done as is and put an end to its status as a work in progress. This was a little drawing I thought to put together from the silly idea of "sELFie", and, thus, an elf taking a selfie. Enjoy.

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New replacement for "go suck a dick": "go get your dick fucked". No, not as in "penetrate someone else." As in, "extreme sounding".

(iirc, this is technically called "docking", but I'm too scared to look it up and find out because that sort of stuff makes me feel weird in *all* the wrong ways.)

Them, sobbing: "You can't just go around calling everything that slightly irritates you 'bitch boy'."

Me, pointing at them: "Bitch boy."

Incidentally, a lot of my use of it has been in referring to my headmate Miles. Because let's face it, he is absolutely a bitch boy.

So, I'm not sure how it happened, but, at some point, "bitch boy" became a part of my vocabulary, and it seems to have become a favourite insult of mine.

I also, in the process of playing a game with slimes in it, came to derive "bitch blob" from it.

So, yeah, there's some insults for ya. Take 'em or leave 'em.

Wait, no. That's not a fucking choice. You don't just choose to struggle with a decision. Not that I'm aware of anyways. I suppose you could choose to struggle with it over, like, flipping a coin, but that's not really particularly "making a decision", is it? I dunno. I'm just gonna, fuckin', die, I guess. Is that an option?

I hope not. I at least need to finish transitioning before I die. I may be dead, but that ain't an excuse to use my deadname!

Honestly, like, I could make a choice one way or the other, or I could just, like, struggle with this decision for so long that it kinda just makes itself for me as I struggle to decide whether I should for so long my buttplug gets here before I decide. But, then, that's another choice I'd have to make, isn't it?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA