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Food, question 

Okay, sudden u-turn:

Does anyone remember FarmRich brand pizza pockets? They were this like triangular thing of soft dough stuffed with sauce and cheese. I remember loving them so much as a kid, but they don't seem make them anymore. I can't be the only one who remembers these right?

(Incidentally, if you do remember, you wouldn't happen to know of a recipe for something similar, would you?)

Basically, I guess the conclusion I've come to with this entire thread is "fuck around and find out." Mess with shit and see what happens. You'll learn something, even if you have to learn the hard way.

And, importantly, it's okay to change your mind, even about stuff that you might feel you shouldn't change your mind on, like your gender once you've started hormones. It's okay to be wrong about yourself. As long as you really are finding a truer version of you.

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meds, re: a bit gross, ph (-), re: kink, re: mh (-), gender feels 

It's the same with psychiatric meds. You gotta find out the hard way whether they work. If they do, good! If they don't, well, we know what *doesn't* work.

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a bit gross, ph (-), re: kink, re: mh (-), gender feels 

I mean, it's like me trying to figure out if any meds can help with the immense pain of having a hard shit that won't come out while the shit behind it's turned to diarrhea. Like, I tried bismuth subsalicylate. It doesn't work. Good to know! I tried a laxative as a way of heading it off. That only made it happen! Now I know *not* to use the rest of the bottle of laxative! Sure, finding these out sucked, but hey. We learned.

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re: kink, re: mh (-), gender feels 

So, yeah. This started with mh (-), but I guess it's now more mh (~). Because, hey. It's okay to be wrong about yourself. Even if I'm not actually trans, that's okay. We may've found out the hard way, but we learned. Even if I'm not *that* masochistic, it's okay, even if we *did* find that out the hard way. The bruises will hurt for a while, but now I know what *not* to try again.

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kink, re: mh (-), gender feels 

I mean, it's like my whole "I want to be beaten up by a sexy foxgirl" thing. Yeah, sure, I say that, and the thought gets me off, but I may finally get the chance only to realize that any masochism I may experience really doesn't outweight the pain of having someone else beat you up. But, hey. There's only one way to find out, right? (No, not punching myself. I can handle that.) Sometimes, you just gotta learn things the hard way.

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mh (-), gender feels 

And, to be clear, I'm not worried I'm a brainwashed cis guy. Trying to dress female does actually feel nice. Being referred to as "Kat" feels nice. The idea of being seen as girl feels nice. But who's to say I'm not just an incredibly femme enby? That hormones won't make me feel better but just as bad or, in particular, worse? It just, I worry about it sometimes. But, hey, sometimes you gotta learn things the hard way.

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mh (-), gender feels 

Sometimes, I worry I'm not really who I say I am, and as I try to be the person I say I am, I'm slowly going to find out just how wrong I am. Like, who's to say that as the estradiol does its thing, I'm not going to suddenly realize I was wrong about wanting to be a girl? (Similar strong worries go for if I get far enough for vaginoplasty. Who's to say I'll like the new arrangement better?) Ya know?

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re:Snouts Incident, praxis 

I have a strong feeling that this is going to sow the same seeds of mistrust that I saw giving rise to altfurry back in 2016. Stay vigilant against racism, transphobia, ableism, or any form of oppressive bigotry taking root in your communities, but also be aware of when you are operating under paranoia.

After all, the strongest antidote against the kind of culture that facilitates fascism in any form is forming meaningful familial-like bonds with each other, and to do so, you need to build trust in one another. Just like how vines grows and wedges into gaps in the loose bricks, so does fascism grow within the gaps between us all and keeps us alienated from one another.

Stay strong, stay vigilant, and be good to one another.

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More chess talk 

Wait, I found worse. Against the hard AI: 5...Qxd3??. It moved it's queen to capture a pawn *that was protected by both a bishop and another pawn*. What the utter fuck was that move?? It literally traded it's queen for a fucking pawn. WHY??

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Anyways, hope you enjoyed that little bit of absolute chess what-the-fuckery. I certainly found it amusing.

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Talking about chess using algebraic notation 

Those $ bits are Numeric Annotations. $4 is your basic ??, the "what the fuck that's a horrible move."" $9 corresponds to "Worst Move." That is literally, of the 2 moves the CPU had, the worst move it could have done. It might as well just have resigned. The game literally just ended with 21. Qe8#. There was *nothing* that the CPU could have done from 20...Ka8.

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Talking about chess using algebraic notation 

So, we have 3...Qxd2+??, the computer literally just charging it's queen forward. That was *immediately* followed by 4. Bxd2. Later, we got the similar 11...Rd1+?? which was followed by a simple 12. Kxd1. But the worst one was 20. Qxe5+ Ka8??, when there were pawns on a7 and b7. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! I literally have it notated in PGN "Ka8$4$9"
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So, I've been playing around with various scoresheet/notating systems for various sports/games lately (things like Portable Game Notation for chess or Project Scoresheet for baseball), and I've been actually using them to learn them. So, like, I used Project Scoresheet to score RTGame playing Wii Sports Baseball and I've started putting his chess matches in clubhouse games into PGN, and I just wanna share a little of how bad that game's "normal" AI is.

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