Ive got like this weird hang-up on the idea of calling myself a trans womanlike, I dont feel like i have the right to call myself one. Trans girl, yeah, that me. But Trans woman? no, that isnt me, im not a woman.

Like a part of that is probably just that i'm still only 18, most people my age probably dont feel like adults yet i assume.

But like, for some reason I think that the point i'll be comfortable with using that term for myself is whenever I get GRS? IDK, but it seems like at that point I can call myself a trans woman. IDK if its internalised transmisia, me seeing that as like a coming-of-age thing, or what. but yeah, thats a thing my brain is doing right now.