gender is a fuck
if we take "gender=identity", then I'm agender and/or demimale
but if we take "gender=performance" or "gender=material class", then I'm clearly a cis man, because my gnc-ness is best understood as gayness and any gendered oppression as homophobia. it's not just that I present as a man, but that I'm comfortable doing it. my indifference towards my gender just manifests as passively accepting my role
gender is a fuck, white guilt
I think part of my anxiety is because I feel pretty much the same way about being a man as I do about being white. neither is super important to my self identity, but they still affect my life in big ways that I just accept.
I'm not trying to equivocate being transgender with being transracial (lmao), but regardless of how I could forsake maleness in a way I couldn't forsake whiteness, my point is that I'm not actually forsaking either