jk I'm all about that bread @danishcookies@computerfairi.es

Like I said, capitalism and mutual aid are antithetical. So with mutual aid, two things are true: 1) You *need* to put yourself before all others much less frequently because your community is already prioritizing you (and the rest of the community) directly. 2) You can withdraw from this system when you need to because those around you are supporting it. When you need to put yourself first, you can, without causing harm.

One of the reasons we experience burnout so severely and so frequently under capitalism is because it's impossible for aid to be pervasive. Aid without herd mutuality is not sustainable.

Essentially: Aid is draining and degenerative. Mutual aid is empowering and generative.

But in a robust system of mutual aid, putting others first *is* putting yourself first in so many ways. In such a system, the investment of emotional/social labor is the inverse: you get out as much as you put in or more. And in a robust system of mutual aid, if you need to withdraw, you generally have the support to do so, because aid is pervasive and communal.

2) In the long term, you work yourself so raw that you can no longer help other people. You can't provide aid, basically rendering you "tamed," unable to effectively fight against the system. And you become evidence that the philosophy is true, you have to put yourself first.

This, in addition to the barrage of other stresses we face constantly, makes it damn near impossible to establish (let alone maintain) a robust system of mutual aid.

If you help someone to the point of burnout, two things happen: 1) In the short term, you provide aid that the state now no longer needs to address. Despite the fact that helping others before yourself is "against the rules," the system will gladly take advantage of it.

Aiding others, then, is an act directly in defiance of this narrative, and mutual aid is the antithesis of capitalist philosophies.

Essentially, burnout is part of the "plan." It feeds the narrative. I think that when we experience burnout, it's because capitalist systems (particularly in the US) inherently give us back less than what we put in. Burnout is the systems' way of profiting off our emotional/social labor.

First, I wanna address what I originally said in a different way: one of capitalism's central narratives is "You have sole responsibility for taking care of yourself and your success." Especially in times of hardship, this ends up translating to: "You have to focus on your own shit first or you will starve." This isn't so much the truth as it is the capitalist ideal; it's what they want the truth to be, and they work hard to build a system that makes it true.