identity discussion
so while many will describe themselves as having always been trans, and just taking a long time to realise it, I think I genuinely was cis for most of my childhood, but as I have grown into "adult"hood I have changed dramatically, and my gender has grown in complexity to the degree that I now resonate very strongly with my genderqueer identity and feel active discomfort with considering myself male
I don't know who I will be in future, but it doesn't invalidate who I am now
identity discussion
my self identity has shifted a lot over the last few years, and I feel like the common narrative would suggest that those changes were all just experiments in search of my "true self", but I don't really feel like that applies, not in my case at least, I genuinely feel like all my past identities were accurate for the time, even though they directly contradict who I am now.
it's not that my labels have been changing to figure out who I am, it's that I have been changing
sad, death of a pet, grief (cont)
His name was Cinnamon Sticks, he was playful and weird, very skittish yet always curious, a little bit dim at times, and terrified of his own shadow, but full of love and excitement at the world. I saw a lot of myself in him, and got very attached in the short time I had to get to know him.
I hope he had a good time, at least, he certainly looked like he did, and I'm glad I got to meet him before he left.
sad, death of a pet, grief
So, today's been a bit of a rough day, I got a call from my Mum letting me know that one of our cat's was run over today, and passed away.
He had only been a part of our family for about half a year, barely more than a kitten, but he and his brother had really become a vital part of our household, and now he is gone.
I've had a lot of pets die over the last couple years, I had hoped to have a good dew years before I had to deal with it again. But sometimes life sucks.
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