Depression
Well… if I am on the autism spectrum, as I suspect, then it explains why I never fit in anywhere. And it also kind of dashes my hopes of *ever* fitting in anywhere too.
Depression
@Tarale understanding yourself better makes it easier to find places where you fit in, IME - even if that might never look the same as it would for an average neurotypical person. it can feel like it sometimes, but being "weird and awkward" isn't automatically a dealbreaker everywhere!
Depression
@isha Yeah, that's one reason I'm considering perhaps getting a diagnosis: access to resources and spaces that I don't currently have.
I'm too old for any of this to have been picked up in childhood and it wasn't until someone described a meltdown that I was like… "hang on a minute". I still don't really know, but I'm looking into it. It certainly would explain a lot. I guess I'm just going through a lot of complicated and messed up feelings about it.