I feel so bad for lotttie... I keep freaking out and projecting my own problems onto her, and I have to try really hard not to think that maybe she doesn't actually like me.

but sometimes, I can't stop myself from telling her that I can't believe she likes me and it must be such a drain on her and I'm so sorry oh my god

I know I'm making it even harder on her, i just don't know how to stop