I've learned something kind of heartbreaking and I've got nobody to talk to about it, because I feel like I've exhausted every possible confidant I have on this issue.

I really don't know what to do, and it's been a big day-to-day drag on my mood. I'm even scared to post this, and I'm doing it because if I don't at least leave a marker that it's happening, the sense of bottling it up will totally cripple my productivity. Again.

I really, really tried to do the right things. *shrug*