🌱lulu🌱 @lulu@computerfairi.es

feeling impending doom and i can hear my sweet sweet otome games calling me... we might have another repeat of The Incident...

somehow my parents managed to find the worlds hardest apples at the grocery store, i can feel my tmj be ground away with every attempt at a bite

the only time i went outside was when my longing for the wilderness overflowed and i spent an entire day hiking alone at age 12

why was one of my biggest interests as a kid wilderness survival when i barely went outside now my brain is too full of primitive survival knowledge to learn any actual useful skills in the modern era

listening to my fav radiohead album for the 3rd time this week i can feel my atoms moving

seeing the red bar on my steam window slowly count down the days until they stop supporting windows 7 feels like i'm a believer of the doomsday theory watching the mayan calendar slowly tick towards the final day back in 2012 again

listening to soft ambient music really does make the world so beautiful.... i find joy and love in every ray of sunlight and every drop of rain...

up at 7:30 am for a stupid doctors appointment where theyre gonna suck me dry of blood and then yell at me for not taking my medicine for a year because of how inaccessible their services are even though they literally have the tools to make it easy for ppl who cant just call UGH..

having severe social anxiety but im too anxious to call the doctor about my social anxiety

been getting back into tetris after a 9 year period of completely forgetting it exists and the amount of power i feel when it gets real fast and i still manage to keep up is insurmountable

god i love not being lactose intolerant, i don't think i could get through a single day without at least a splash of milk

been using my 10 year old wacom tablet as a coaster for my tea and plate for my sandwiches and it still works like new, at this point im scared replacing it would give it sentience and fill its wires with anger and i can only hope it finds it in its heart to think of me fondly as i lay blissfully unaware at night completely at its mercy

From the amount of apples I have been consuming recently I fear I may be turning into a horse, or perhaps, some kind of hog.

fuck real life i just wanna play geoguesser all day

editing html feels like im taming a wild beast using only body language indications and not actual skill or preparedness

living in a stupidly well insulated house is hellish for the sole reason that when i get dressed in the morning it's for my rooms 17-ish degree temperature and not for the 30 degrees outside, so i get hit by a wall of heat like i'm opening an oven the second i step outside

how the hell am i supposed to apply for 6+ jobs a month when i cant even find ONE