Esme Povirk @madewokherd@computerfairi.es
Joined Aug 2018
Success, I have installed a mednafen (and half of a Linux userspace).
Installing pkgsrc on Steam Deck in the hopes that I can then just not care about the stuff outside $HOME being frequently wiped out.
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This discussion reminded me of an interview I heard on NPR a few weeks ago w/ an author of a children's book about a boy w/ one arm. It's aimed at disabled kids, giving them permission to not answer questions about their bodies. It acknowledges the often unspoken belief people tend to have that if you're different, you must want someone to comment on it, to break tension (and how this needs to STOP). I can't remember the name of the book. Anyone know it?
plurality question
When we become sufficiently familiar with an external person's voice that we can imagine them saying a specific thing on demand, is that introjection?
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@matthewskelton this made me realize that, as I was thinking of all the research I've read lately, plus books like reinventing organizations, well...
The most successful leadership teaching course of all time might just be convincing executives to go to therapy for 5 years??
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@DivineKestrel
This one still hits and I absolutely love it.
I love it!
I love being a girl.
Credit: AyvieArt
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Good day to everyone still taking precautions. #CovidIsNotOver
stream announcement
https://twitch.tv/madewokherd Trying this again, after the failure a couple days ago due to tech issues.
plurality
I'm going to try to be the system's host. That doesn't mean I'll be fronting all the time or even most of the time necessarily, but I'll be responsible for moment-to-moment bodily operations when no one else is engaged with it, which should hopefully reduce instances of it being left largely unattended.
It does require someone in the system to remember that when I'm needed, so I'm not sure how effective it'll be, especially at first.
-iore
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I believe this: Because life is self-organizing and regenerating, even the very tiny shifts we make away from harm and towards sustenance of life open up possibilities that compound upon themselves.
stream announcement
stream canceled due to tech issues
stream announcement
https://twitch.tv/madewokherd Still doing the chaotic game-switchy thingy.
trauma from growing up neurodivergent
This might be an adaptive characteristic based on teachers frequently asking me to do things that I found practically impossible. If I weren't able to disregard them, it would've destroyed me.
It might also be where I learned to accept my experiences as real, even if no one else seems to get it or believe them.
In certain ways, adults trained me from an early age not to trust them.
I'm realizing that in most of my life I'm not very responsive to external motivation, but in software development I absolutely am. Or maybe it's just that the flavor of external motivation I respond to is "this has a concrete benefit for someone" and not "someone is asking me to do this".
A project I've been working on for 2 years is now out in the wild (Proton bleeding-edge branch, enabled by default for 4 games: the non-special-edition Skyrim release, Mugster, Clustertruck, and Red Faction). It add gamepad support to launchers that don't have it built in. https://github.com/ValveSoftware/Proton/commit/627d220fa3d7a489ddf258a96b2bf557604d5db9
This is real and not an April Fools joke.
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The security community is going through the five stages of grief right now with the xz thing and I think a lot of people are coping with “there are technical measures that could have prevented this”. To move on, it is important to understand that this is not true in the slightest
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The eldest among us remember the First Web, before search engines were Good Actually. They used secret magics to make sense of the chaos that was the First Web.
Site directories.
Web rings.
Home pages linking to trusted sites.
Homework and jello shooter recipes study notes.
Now that the Search Engines have fallen it is time to bring those ancient tools back, for ourselves and the youngest among us who never knew the First Web.
brain noise, hypnosis, sfw
So the process of quieting our brain was:
- Observe (through meditation, hypnosis, or whatever works) how you think.
- Try to identify the whole chain of events. For us, that was a nonverbal thought followed by internal speech. Which led to more thoughts, causing a feedback loop.
- Once you can see the chain of events, find a way to intentionally interrupt it. We did that by directing our attention to somewhere there weren't thoughts.
- Practice until it's easy.
brain noise, hypnosis, sfw
We had the important realization recently that there was a condition that needed to be met before we could learn that. In order to decide not to voice a thought, we had to be aware of thoughts before we heard them. But it wasn't enough to just observe them as many people do in meditation, once we could observe them we had to actively suppress our automatic response to them.
Joined Aug 2018
