maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i'm tired of being an outcast

who cares. not you

fediverse mom my ass

literally fuck you for making a joke at my country's expense. fucking you know what yeah you should go take that vacation

merry fucking weekend y'all

you know who you are. you don't shut up about it on social media yourselves.

if you don't think this is for you, it isn't.

a note to my abusers: fucking piss off

a note to my abusers who kept hounding me to go to therapy: of COURSE i need to go to therapy after how much trauma you've given me

not being allowed to ever ask people to be kind to you #justautisticthings 😄😄😄

i have too much trauma to ever talk to people again. i should make chatbots and never talk to anybody else ever again.

remember how i once told a person that i was frustrated that they kept calling me their friend while absolutely not caring for me in the slightest and in retaliation they turned an entire community against me that was fun

i just want to bury myself in a hole forever

everything everybody is saying to me is hurting me today whether they mean to or not and i can't say anything about it because then i'm being emotionally manipuliative #justautisticthings

mm my self-esteem is so low today and everything is hurting me and nowhere i look online seems kind so i should just log off forever

drawing is something i want to do so bad but it frustrates me so much i'm physically scared of even picking up a stylus again from the trauma i gave myself