maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i'm not a part of any communities. i tried to start my own because no communities want me around because i'm apparently too problematic and make literally every single person on the planet uncomfortable, but nobody else wants to be part of those communities either

i don't need to be harassed by kiwifarms to want to kill myself but god i wish they'd give me a good reason to

every time i try to reach out to any mutual i'm meet with cold shoulders because they have more important and interesting friends to talk to. i'm a burden, people avoid me. please, don't fucking ever tell me all i need to do is reach out. you're not really listening

even when i say i want to kill myself these days nobody reaches out anymore. i've cried wolf too many times. one day it'll just be one of those things that "i didn't think he could really do it" "people who actually do it never talk about it anyway"

fuck you.

i can't remember the last time i felt a hug. i can't remember the last time someone reached out to me without having to say that i want to kill myself. please dont take this personally: you don't care about me, that's not your job, and i just need to learn to live without friends

why would you even like this tweet??

honestly just hoping for my turn to be a lolcow. i know i'm on the list somewhere, or maybe i'm not even important enough for that

thank you for proving my point that you do not in fact care, to the point of leaving me on the capable hands of *checks notes* automated twitter email

kindly fuck off reporting my posts. who do you think you're helping

when i do kill myself, please don't write anything about me. i know nobody would bother anyway, i'm just preemptively giving you my word that'll let you off the hook from having to come up with anything to say to pretend you knew or cared

suicide is something that hits me really hard, people following me might know.

please, if you're not doing well, reach out to a friend, a stranger, anyone who can lend an ear.

i'm going to try to take some time off but if you want someone to listen my contacts are on my website

just so whoever is doing this knows: if you're locked and i'm not following you i can't see your replies

how many people exactly does kiwifarms need to endanger and murder before they're taken offline? @DreamHost@twitter.com @Cloudflare@twitter.com

hmm something tells me this game boy emulator i ported is not completely accurate

i can't find a single one locally (they're all widescreen) and the few i found on aliexpress are far too much to justify the cost

it's annoying how hard and expensive it is to find a 4:3 10" VGA LCD

i'm really hoping the ESS ESFM synth works under DOS mode

fine ok i bought the compaq armada 7800