maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i'm starting to spiral and failed in staying away from twitter. sorry

hey if you're a furry i probably don't like you because you're better than i am. sorry

me: gosh i wish i had the things you have

every single mutual who could invite me to their circles but don't: wow yeah that sucks. hope you find a place some day

it's time to mute/block more accounts i'm jealous of and try to not be on twitter for the rest of the day

i wish i was invited to anything ever.

if i have you blocked/muted chances are i'm jealous you have more friends/interactions than i do. sorry i don't make my brain rules, the people who excluded me from public spaces everywhere are the ones who did

i wish i was in the part of the furry fandom who's ok being horny at each other on main but nobody wants me in the furry fandom ^o^

at least i remembered how to draw my face. a little bit. it's taller/not as wide than i'd have liked. that's one of the things that frustrate me, that i can't keep things consistent.

this is why drawing is so frustrating to me. i have no technique, i have no modus operandi on how to do it, on how to keep things consistent, and i just cannot seem to learn any way to do it like other people do. it's constantly an uphill process just to make a sketch

i don't know how other people do it. like i might have the dexterity to put idea to paper but i do not know the techniques and tools i need to draw hair and line art and color it the way i want. i see it in other people's art but nobody has ever shared any techniques with me

trying to work on drawing again, still not happy with how i color or line over sketch or draw hair, but i can't learn any techniques that'll help me draw consistently

here's a disembodied head

who would've thought the moment i got an actual paying job i'd just hock a bunch of money to get retro stuff because i wanna feel like the US people i know where there are thrift stores

i've been wanting to play with a newer powerpc mac since getting my g3 imac back in 2014 (which i still have but is too unwieldy to play with anymore, so now i'm going for laptop form factors for my retro purchases)

i bought a 12" ibook g4 and i can't wait for it to get here 🥺

i want to read a queer fiction story about a top who would use their bottom as a password generator and that's how after a messy breakup the bottom was able to enact revenge by stealing their accounts