maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

https://mobile.twitter.com/maplesbian/status/1426636027888914444

people whenever i show up anywhere

could anyone please reply

i wish i could be cute but i'm too old and bitter because i got bullied and excluded when i was younger and now that door already closed so i'm going to be envious of everybody who's cute and who people like

just please tell me you don't like me to my face instead of ignoring me

i'm starting to spiral and failed in staying away from twitter. sorry

hey if you're a furry i probably don't like you because you're better than i am. sorry

me: gosh i wish i had the things you have

every single mutual who could invite me to their circles but don't: wow yeah that sucks. hope you find a place some day

it's time to mute/block more accounts i'm jealous of and try to not be on twitter for the rest of the day

i wish i was invited to anything ever.

if i have you blocked/muted chances are i'm jealous you have more friends/interactions than i do. sorry i don't make my brain rules, the people who excluded me from public spaces everywhere are the ones who did

i wish i was in the part of the furry fandom who's ok being horny at each other on main but nobody wants me in the furry fandom ^o^

at least i remembered how to draw my face. a little bit. it's taller/not as wide than i'd have liked. that's one of the things that frustrate me, that i can't keep things consistent.

this is why drawing is so frustrating to me. i have no technique, i have no modus operandi on how to do it, on how to keep things consistent, and i just cannot seem to learn any way to do it like other people do. it's constantly an uphill process just to make a sketch

i don't know how other people do it. like i might have the dexterity to put idea to paper but i do not know the techniques and tools i need to draw hair and line art and color it the way i want. i see it in other people's art but nobody has ever shared any techniques with me

trying to work on drawing again, still not happy with how i color or line over sketch or draw hair, but i can't learn any techniques that'll help me draw consistently

here's a disembodied head

who would've thought the moment i got an actual paying job i'd just hock a bunch of money to get retro stuff because i wanna feel like the US people i know where there are thrift stores

i've been wanting to play with a newer powerpc mac since getting my g3 imac back in 2014 (which i still have but is too unwieldy to play with anymore, so now i'm going for laptop form factors for my retro purchases)

i bought a 12" ibook g4 and i can't wait for it to get here 🥺