maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

the analogy is wonky because i'm not clever but you get the gist of it

it works very well for a very select few people and you will be yelled very loudly at if it doesn't work for you

mastodon is like email insofar as if all of Google was a gender studies major that blocked all of Yahoo for trimming their toenails in the students common area and warned everyone against Hotmail for being a libertarian and filtered it such that only a few emails made it there from them

sometimes i do lick my wounds too much. but that's abuse ptsd for you and it's hard to heal from

what's important is that i'm trying my best and that i know there are people who can see that despite everything else, so i know it's real and can ignore those who disagree.

reminding myself i'll close the tab and nothing bad from here will follow me in the AFK

good night

you know how removing most context from any sort of declaration can open things to extremely harmful interpretations?

now consider how fractured any communication is on the #fediverse where you can barely even see all replies to a post, let alone all previous posts if only a specific one from an account was fetched

your instance only sees the posts from an account if they're fetched

and generally speaking it'll only fetch all posts if someone followed that account

PTSD is a bitch.

this is, also, a note to myself

cooler heads prevail

fuck it man just chill out

twenty years from now nobody will care about your social media performance in this website

the people who are angry at me are usually because i didn't let them win

lol oh to find out people associated with my past abusers on here is now a sex cult supporter

i'm sleeping soundly tonight

i've been here since april 2017. the things people are complaining about today here echo the same things that were complained about back then too.

i just want my home back

this is my problem with the fediverse and social media at large. we're not supposed to all be sharing the same house. nobody will be happy and satisfied all at once. we're all going to get in each other's nerves.

there is not a single #fediverse and to say that any singular community built it is problematic.

everyone else wants to be loud but is upset when others are loud towards them, it seems

i'm here to be a problem to those who choose to see me as a problem

i have plenty of friends who do not choose to see me as a problem

you wanna listen to PoC how about a brazilian latina #fediblock

i have also been here since april 2017 folks

computer fairies was founded in april 13 2017

i've been pushed out of my own space because i wanted to be friends with the wrong people, apparently, literally it was a personal spat with a bigger instance admin which turned into "ooo this person is a mad abuser"

i wanted rhys to be my friend, not to be ghosted and belittled by them

i don't think that's too abusive to ask for, in a personal environment

that's the danger of #fediblock