maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i've been on hrt for 8 years and all i got was this lousy t-shirt. i can't feel like one of the girls and i can't feel like one of the other girls either.

i wish i also felt positive in being trans but for me it's all struggle and little payoff and seeing others celebrate it without me feels very othering

i've completed the #gameboycamera experience #gbcamera #gameboyprinter #webgbcam

"but it's not a like on my platform, it's labelled favourite instead"

1. that makes no difference in meaning
2. i'm gonna make a fork of mastodon where instead of a star it's a poop emoji and i'm going to start pooping on all of your posts

"everybody uses it this way" is not the gotcha you think it is

make it make sense. you cannot. you lied to yourself for years.

i cannot fathom at all the doublespeak that social media has infested in other people such that the terms and iconography:

• star
• like
• favourite

have no meaning at all rooted in their appearance or original idiom, but instead are used as a rat cage instant gratification such that i am deemed persona non grata for saying "please don't favourite my negative posts"

why should i do anything? why can't you do something else instead? how is that "trying to spread love"? i fucking hate mastodon, man

"you should infer that a favourite is support and not an actual favourite" - person who just blocked me for gently being reminded to not favourite posts about my suicidal tendencies

resurrecting a years old wifi-enabled thermal printer project

@sophia81 hi please read my bio before liking that i am or was suicidal

officially https://pronoun.gdn is "pronoun garden" but i like to think it can also be "pronoun goddamn"

i could use a hug

this is a post about how suicidal i was at age 14, natch

the licking of the wounds will continue until morale improves

i guess what i mean is i'm glad trans women now get to come out and be celebrated online but lol i'm envious that y'all are so socially and personally well resolved

my transition was extremely harsh and involved a lot of pain and came at a time i had no social circles to come out to. i never really got congratulated for it, in fact the few people i knew at the time demonized me until i meet new people well into transition already. it just kinda happened and now apparently i'm a trans elder at least in regards to hrt without even doing anything special