Rivaclaw🏳️‍⚧️ΘΔ @renbymon@computerfairi.es

@ruawhitepaw *hug* 💜

Good news at least today is that I'm down to 116.8kg. The walk at the weekend really did me good apparently; I should try and make it weekly thing.

Mental note: build up a backlog of HRT so that you don't end up rationing and then having a depressive episode like the last 24 hours

@TonicBH There's one in a couple of months that I really want to go to

I laid down in bed two hours ago and I can't sleep because I'm just crying again

I really want to go to a camping thing with a load of furries in a wood or field and just sit around a campfire for a few days and mask-off. I feel like I haven't been able to be myself for so long that I almost had a breakdown at work too.

I want to enjoy nature with like minded people but I don't know where to start or how to do it. I wanna be myself with my friends and not have to work or hide my true self.

Earlier this evening I had a proper breakdown in the kitchen while washing up; had a realisation that 90% of the stuff I did with friends over the last 12 months has been something related to doing a job and that absolutely wrecked me for about 30 minutes.
Not to say that the jobs weren't fun but there's been so little just hanging and being with friends, especially as doing a job means being professional and I haven't really had a proper chance to just be myself because of it

@trans_lykanthropie good werewolf!!! <3