Scarly the Raven @scarly@computerfairi.es

gay crow

today is a good day. my project passed some minor milestones that have given me a major boost in good vibes. my brain is actually stitching itself together at a rapid rate (every day is an improvement). i have also received hefty doses of schadenfreude regarding an obnoxious ex-acquaintance.

i am a happy crow.

an important and frequently overlooked skill for those that work in teams is the simple ability to leave their ego at the door and consider that there may be more than one way to approach things.

this morning, i tried to tell the sun to leave me alone. this didn't work. now, i'm awake.

dancing in the darkness. twirling in the shadows cast by a light that never finds me. the shadows dance accompaniment. the night applauds. can a darkness so radiant ever bow to the day?

a single bad relationship, even a not particularly close one, can melt away years of work on self image in a single day.

if someone has an inclination to tear you down and apart, then it isn't going to be possible to reason with this and it shouldn't be your duty to forgive.

get out of and away from situations that eat into your personal worth.

at this stage in my life, i'm finding that i often have to make adjustments and set harsh boundaries simply because i don't have the same capacity for negative circumstances that i used to

it isn't that i'm particularly old, i think, but i definitely feel like i've had much more than my own share of stress, frustration, disappointment, and loss at this point. way too much

so, i may not always feel the need to take on additional potential sources of these things, because wow i'm tired

perceived or real skill in programming does not suddenly give anyone the right to forego basic empathy.

the caustic, casually denigrating culture that infests computer science has got to go. rampant toxicity, in the long run, leads to stagnation in software development, because everyone that isn't steeped in that culture gets pushed out.

reading the comments on any mainstream news article about race, gender, or sexuality is always something akin to torture

i'll stop ranting about social justice issues whenever i can read comments without constantly seeing casual bigotry as the number one item by likes

i have the habit of passionately soap-boxing about things that would bore most people to tears

when a white person says that they're "color blind" in response to discussion about racism, they think that they're saying "i am a tolerant person."

however, what they're actually saying is "i can't see racism, so i won't acknowledge it", which is a really messed up way to look at the world

closing our eyes and putting our heads in the sand doesn't make something go away. racism is here to stay until it is acknowledged, explicitly called out by name, and strongly addressed in every community.