romance rambling -
I miss having crushes on people. Idk what it is but I'm going through a pretty long phase where I'm not attracted to anyone and it's weird. That and in that subsequent time I've become even more of an oddball of a person and less "dateable." I don't necessarily WANT to keep up with society's timeline of when I should be with someone and I don't want a lot of things society says I should want but it would be nice to feel like that again one day I guess.
family --
She only started being "nice" when I moved out and she realized I could cut her off. I wouldn't have had to do this if she hadn't abused me for years so she reaps what she sows I guess. I think she's been trashing me to the rest of the family too and it's frustrating. They always take her side and no one ever listens to me. Oh well, at least my friend found family is better, but I just needed to vent.
family --
I've been on very minimal speaking terms with abusive parents and I wish they would just outright say they're mad at me instead of being passive aggressive. It's my brother's birthday today and biomother is absolutely gushing about him on Facebook when all I got from her on mine was "we hope you had a good birthday" in a DM. It's just irritating that they pretend to do the bare minimum of "nice" to try and manipulate me and I wish they'd just be outright mean.
Today my life force has been restored, my crops have been watered, and the food supply is flourishing
27, they/them, autistic, queer, winged rabbit furry. Midwest USA.