lian @slooploon@computerfairi.es

Maybe I need more #actuallyautistic and #disabled #disability #spoonie people... #chronicpain #chroniclife

The good thing though, this neat little instance seems to be quite wonderful. Feels safe and protected. So maybe I should just be more thorough with evaluating which people to follow.

So far, mastodon is more draining than anything else. So much ableism, so many people so far removed from my life experience, and no stable community of disabled people around me for support. Idk how I'm going to continue from here.

In its tortured state, the crippled human cries out for food, not realising that there is nobody who would help

now i know why i put off updating my name on services that persist on legal documents as proof for so long... because it never just works and you get like 30 mails with "hello DEADNAME! we see that you are actually now called differently but we still call you DEADNAME because you followed our instructions which are shit and don't work! we do not apologize for triggering intense dysphoria either because we are shitheads! please follow our instructions that are wrong! goodbye DEADNAME"

whose works are going to have the shit promoted out of them and are going to be hyped up for being "inventive" and "revolutional" when they're just copying what everyone else has been doing since forever? WHIIIITE MEEEEEEEEEN'S

so whose books wind up on your bookshelves as "bestsellers" even though they're mediocre AT BEST

yeah you guessed it

WHITE MEN'S.

white men are structurally seen as more talented than everyone else, so who's going to be supported with their writing? WHITE MEN

white men's viewpoint is seen as universally relatable, while everyone else's is not, AND they are perceived as more skilled than anyone else, so who are publishers going to accept most quickly? WHITE. MEN.

whose works are the rules for what is "good literature" based on?
WHITE. FUCKING. MEN'S.

white men make up about, what, 14-16% of the world population?

i'm going to guess most people's bookshelves have a LOT higher percentage of books written by white men than that.

there's a whole system of privilege & systemic discrimination that leads to this result.

white men hold most of the world's wealth & power.

so who's most likely to be in a position where they have free time & resources to write, which is always unpaid at first? white meeeen

I am still so annoyed by those "why is the author's gender and race important??" people that i'm going to spell it out for everyone who may not know why that's crap.

"just read what's good! you will automatically wind up with a diverse mix of authors from all backgrounds! (and don't need to question your own privileges)"

sounds reasonable? only it doesn't work like that.

i'm guessing the people who think that's a good idea think that's what they're doing. just reading what's good.

i think eventually i'll need a new ebook reader (one that i can actually read on, you know) but, first i got to re-learn reading books at all... autistic burnout is awful

i deleted my asking for books post because i've already got a long list, and the amount of people telling me i'm discriminating white cis guys got too damn high

now i have like 20 books on a list i want to read, and several of those are beginnings of book series, ahhhh this is bad (in a good way)

i can already see the objections. "but all the important works of literature have been written by white men!!! white men get more fiction awards and sell more books than anyone else!!!!"

men are pathetic

oh god some guy just tried to splain systemic discrimination to me. discrimination against white guys!!!! don't limit your reading choices by the author's race or gender!!!! just read what's good!!!!!

hate to break it to you mate but

white men's literature sucks

on twitter i have such a well filtered bubble. i don't get this kind of shit in this concentration over there. it's like 2012 all over again

honestly, white cis men telling me that not wanting to read white cis men is bad pretty much explains the whole problem i have with white cis men. they're privileged assholes.

if you stop acting so goddamn entitled, maybe i'll consider looking at your works but until then: get off your high horse, check your privilege, fuck off

wow, so many people telling me that not wanting to read white cis men is bad

oh god i had a nightmare
in which, to change your gender on ebay, you had to provide a legal certificate of gender change