MH--, family, social media, π¨
I'm not sure where this comes from, but I feel so obligated to be friends with family on social media, even slightly estranged ones. Letting them have access to me makes me feel.. watched, maybe slightly paranoid? And anytime they post something negative I know includes me, it makes me feel like shit about myself. Societal expectations just suck..
Mental health, disability, lonely
Idk how to communicate at all anymore and it feels like I just have to learn to be content in loneliness. I want to have friends, but at this point it feels like I'm scared to make a connection since it wasn't so long ago that my health isolated me from everyone. I just don't want people to abandon me so I guess now I just leave first, even though it feels ridiculous.
something that's been on my mind lately: white folks spend So Much time and money killing plants just because they aren't the one kind of plant they want growing there. like... nature is so abundant, if we just stopped fucking poisoning and chopping things all day long there would be plants everywhere in like 3 months. many of those would be edible. we spend so much energy just stopping nature from doing its thing.
(this is not a metaphor but it could be. what are you weedwhacking in your soul?)
@sophieactual hi again, and that's completely understandable. Thank you for the warning about that, I'll make sure to be careful whenever that comes up, so far I haven't seen anything mentioning it
@sophieactual @flootist Hi! Thanks so much for taking the time out to help me. I usually go by Sy and they/them pronouns (although I'm starting to realize I have headmates that go by different pronouns and names that I'm not 100% sure on yet. I'll definitely be sure to check out the DSM-5, it'd be nice to have some info like that. Also fast isn't necessarily a bad thing, I could always ask for more clarity on things if I need π
Part of a system by the name of Sy. We all are going to make individual accounts, so I can link them somewhere here when that happens.
I like art, poetry, video games, spirituality, and cold, windy weather! I tend to be pretty shy, so please be kind and considerate!