@highsaffron it really is tiring!!! honestly i only really know about this cycle because i did it for so many years - and have my moments of doing it still where i gotta check in on myself.
and holy shit, being angry all the time is exhausting. and it can really wreck your body, too. but i'm biased there with the fibro, i admit, because tensing up muscles out of irritation can become a nonstop pain bonanza pretty quick in my case LOL
but, you'll still have that habit: "i feel bad, i have to go be angry at someone to feel better".
and when everyone else leaves you, guess who is going to be the only one you'll have handy to be mad at? yep, it's you.
you end up handing self-loathing and self-hatred an all you can eat protein shake buffet to become bigger and tougher and ready to pummel the absolute ever-loving hell of you.
and, well, that's not a good coping strategy, if that's what it ends up doing, right?
more immediately, if you use getting angry as a coping strategy, it's one that's almost always going to end badly. if getting angry at something is your comfort food, you're reinforcing those habits of "i feel bad, i have to go be angry at someone to feel better". eventually that takes over your mode of communicating with most people. and your friends will wander off, because they want to be friends with you, not punching bags you unload on.
what i mean when i say 'anger is addictive' is more like 'anger can become a bad coping strategy'. being righteously angry feels good. it feels very good to reaffirm your beliefs and fight for them and to stand up for a cause.
however that anger and fire needs to be directed and used appropriately. if you have it take over your entire life, you're going to end up screwing yourself. i'm not saying all anger is bad - anger is good and useful - but you gotta be careful with it.
@highsaffron i don't know what the fuck kinda shit is going down, but this is a good take.
also, anger is addictive. you can very easily get into a spiral of just being angry all the time, and not actually doing anything useful or worthwhile with that anger, while still giving yourself all the negative effects. anger is useful, but it is like fire - it belongs in a carefully tended furnace or on a candle, not raging to take over your entire house.
y'know, 'rolling in the deep' isn't a complete improvement, but it's better than 'mm whatcha say'
except it was like a rap remix of said mmm whatcha say which heightened the absurdity here significantly
however i feel it is the very nature of bullies that as soon as they get the smallest dose of their own medicine, or even any pushback, they immediately throw the largest and most tearful tantrum they possibly can.
if your annual income is in the double digit millions, you don't get to cry about being oppressed by big corporations and about how the megacorps should tangle with someone their own size. your competition IS picking on someone their own size - YOU.
honestly, the entire odious nature of pewdiepie aside (this is a very big aside, i am sorry), that whole thing makes me roll my eyes very hard.
when you are raking in several *billion* dollars a year, you are no longer a small-time one-man creator. yeah, we should be aware of how corporations can steamroll and drown out small creators. but if you're posting an annual income of 15 million, YOU AIN'T SMALL.
the situation may still be david and goliath, but pewds ain't david lmao.
is the compulsion to worriedly offer hospitality to anyone working in my house an expression of my increasing sympathy with blue collar workers as i become more aware of my privilege and take time to educate myself, or is it just my grandmacore showing?
i think it's 50-50 honestly, but also, see message inscribed on this oven mitt
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