Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

i still v much run the risk of bumbling into trans femme spaces like an asshole, but i'm hoping that i'll become better at figuring out those lines over time. and when in doubt, i can always just ask.

because, well, it might be a topic where the poster only wants trans femme folks weighing in. or it might be validating to be treated as 'just one of the gals'. who knows! dunno until i ask, right?

or even that they're just fucking tired of explaining the trans experience over and over and are totally ok with that not being on the table. which is also extremely valid.

i figure if i can help ease that burden, just a tad, it's useful work to do, y'know?

so maybe in that avenue, i can sort of help open up something for trans femmes. like, if it becomes more of a thing to go "oh! yeah, my great auntie had to get her beard lasered off haha, sometimes bodies are weird" - if i can help make some things less of an indicator for 'hey i'm trans' - that might be a welcome shelter for somebody when they're in a situation where they don't feel safe outing themselves as trans.

and maybe just normalizing these things *as* someone who is solidly cishet is going to be the greater social action.

like: yeah, some girls have to shave in the morning. yeah, some girls have to remove facial hair. yeah, some girls have acne that comes from too much testosterone on the skin. it's just a thing, no big deal.

like, despite being cishet, i'm rather bad at many aspects of girl-ing so to speak, and i feel like maybe talking frankly about what i've learned - and being excited to share with people what i've learned - is something that's going to be an experience more people will resonate with. like i may be cishet, but i can still offer tips to trans femmes about, say, facial hair removal, from what i've learned as i experienced it.

so i've been trying to think about what i can do outside of that label to still be - again. i'm so sorry everyone. - a decent ally.

i think i might actually be able to have a better effect if i just own up to being solidly cishet and keep on keepin' on, as it were. i feel like perhaps i can make more of a difference in some ways there.

to equate my "sometimes i get annoyed about having to shave" to the suffering of, well, actual intersex people, would just be insulting to them. people can certainly have it a lot worse than me, just with PCOS, or even have it lighter than me in symptoms and still feel like the label of intersex fits them!

but when i think of myself using it... idk, it feels scummy? it doesn't feel right and fitting.

they rather reasonably said that this was something where it is available to people to self-identify. so i've been mulling over that.

and to be honest, i don't think i really feel that pull. massive respect for those who do, but i'll be blunt, that mantle doesn't sit on my shoulders so well. it just feels like me, personally, reaching and trying to feed a line of bullshit to people to get into places i shouldn't be in.

so

again sorry about all these thoughts i'm about to jettison into the universe. but

so

i keep thinking about a rather interesting thing i read while looking up resources for someone awhile back - a tumblr about intersex advocacy. one of their posts was about how they - and thus the blog - did indeed consider PCOS to be a condition in the intersex header, if the person with PCOS thought it so.

and i was like: huh, interesting!

the building... begins

and will continue once i get a snack. #conanexiles

all the scandals aside, let's be honest. i'm not buying or installing #fallout76 until there are private servers, and specifically there is at least one private server for #mbmbam fans.

i'm not going down those country roads until i can be assured that there is somebody roleplaying Boycar, Protector and King of Chilladelphia https://i.pinimg.com/originals/36/ac/b9/36acb9debfb67057773e06279bb76213.gif

whenever i see someone say "undertale is so cringey, it's just the next homestuck" i get low-key offended

they're very different

undertale is actually good.

and by instagram i mean snapchat

...

listen, i have a lot of nyquil on board,

#todaysselfie feat. instagram filters

ayy apparently the updates from the time when i wasn't playing have ended up doing some much-needed optimization to #conanexiles

i can run everything on medium + high draw distance, WITH chrome still up, instead of it pitching a fit about having to share my computer at all with everything on depressingly low

(but still anti-aliasing turned off) (simply bc you know how there's good anti-aliasing and there's bad? yeah i just don't like anti-aliasing in this game v much. too blurry.)

still somewhat haunted by the fact i may have splatted a five year old in #splatoon2 a couple days ago

seriously, someone tell me that it's the new done thing to put the year you got your system in your username, so i can believe [Personname]2014 was in fact not a very tiny kid

I'M SO SORRY, I THOUGHT THAT AIMLESS WANDERING WITHOUT INKING ANYTHING WAS AN EASY KILL AND DIDN'T NOTICE THE NAME UNTIL AFTER I KILLED YOU....

authentic internet content: writing a bunch of exclamation points and having your finger slip off the shift key at the end so you write a 1 and deleting it as a typing mistake, then pondering, going back, and intentionally putting the 1 back in there to reflect your level of excitement

i need to drag my best friend to the fediverse bc they drew a jackalope fursona and they are SO CUTE and EVERYONE needs to LOOK AT THIS IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!1

time to see if after max dose of decongestants, nasal sprays, and so on, if i will be able to sleep

or breathe

or both at once