Millie @Atatra@computerfairi.es

nothing about my body works, nothing about it is right, i'm too big and too wide and slow and everything hurts, i buy sex toys and lingerie and i feel like a carbon copy of the 'man in a dress' jokes in old movies, and this is only going to get read by one person who already knows how much it hurts, i don't know why i'm writing this but it needs to be somewhere other than my head

"hey millie are you a top or a bottom? dom or sub?" well in theory i'm a switch and a verse, thanks for asking, but in practice it hurts to masturbate due to hrt and disability, and there is precisely one person on the planet who is attracted to me and even then i don't feel worthy of that attention, so just put me down as N/A

currently in that fascinating, painful intersection of bottom dysphoria, weight dysmorphia, and disability frustration where it feels like my body is the equivilent of that junk pc built from all the old, thrown out parts that people didn't want anymore, and everyone keeps promising that eventually they'll upgrade and i'll get yet another round of second handed stuff. hope someday i have a body i actually want to wake up in

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So it's news years day, do I start drinking immediately or wait until 6pm *looks at the time she got up* ah, hm