Millie @Atatra@computerfairi.es

am i still allowed to call myself a trans girl if i don't have a bocchi the rock profile picture and if i don't live in seattle and don't regularly go to house parties and don't have a stick thin figure, am i still allowed to be a trans girl if i need help getting dressed in the mornings and if i don't wear striped thigh highs, tell me

sorry i'm just unbelievably cranky today because of pain and various other things and seeing any more 'all trans girls do (x) and enjoy (x) and went to these events and enjoy (x) show' is going to make me explode, i'm sorry that i have a chronic condition that had robbed me of my ability to be independent and go to bars and clubs and concerts as a teenager, long before i realized i was trans, i'm sorry i don't fit your cookie cutter identity

anyway hi i'm your cranky disabled trans woman for the day, please don't mind the chronic pain and the longing and the anger, it's only going to get worse

'just move to a big city in the uk' that would be wonderful if i weren't extremely disabled and completely dependent on the support network my family provides, i guess us rural queers just have to take one for the team and spend our lives alone

i'm so glad you live in one of those big US cities where apprently trans people are abundant and you can just, find other trans women to hang around with and date etc, sure would love it if i felt at all like i had any kind of local community like that

love to see posts about queer communities written by people living in these huge cities in the US like 'oh that universal experience of seeing another trans girl at a party etc' and being like, no, that isn't universal? i cannot say, to my memory, that i have physically been in the same room as another trans femme except my wife, and that's because she crossed the atlantic ocean to be with me, being in small rural communities is so isolating and gets ignored so easily

I don't know what I need or how to ask for it, but there's a gaping hole in me and it resonates with this one comic and makes me yearn deep down, it hurts and I need and I can't have

Read the entirety of the webcomic "her pet" and it's given me intense feelings and needs and I don't even know that they're really sexual or just, a need for physical contact and non sexual ownership and so many things I can't put words to and can't have.

getting really sick of people putting stuff about that whale article on my timelines and triggering thalassaphobia god